Tag: sustainability

  • birthday fantasy wishlist

    birthday fantasy wishlist

    Sooo I had actually meant to post this for Christmas/holiday season and I completely forgot, luckily my birthday is shortly after the holiday season. I am staunchly a believer that gifts should either be extremely over the top, something the receiver would not buy for themselves because it is too decadant to justify buying (you can tell I loved the fantasy lookbook from Neimans each year); oooor gifts should be very practical something that would improve the receiver’s life and make it easier. This could be something like a bill paid or money, a reusable lint roller (or anything in a fabric care kit if they’ve expressed they want to take better care of their clothes), or cookbook tailored to their interests. Essentially glamorous or extremely glamorous. The only time you should buy something random is if you don’t really know the person, that’s when the thought counts because if you buy something for someone you have a close relationship with and you’re unsure if they will like it or they’ve told explicity things they want and you stray from that list to get something you think they will like, it is no longer the thought that counts because you didn’t think. Gift giving is very easy, you just have to listen. I have more thoughts on gifts but this is the gist. Let’s get into my fantasy list, which is really an aliquot of a larger list.

    Now that I’m sitting here though I realize I really forgot one important item from this list sooo I’m just going drop a photo of it at the end.

    1. Diptyque Sapins. This is my favorite candle from diptyque, it’s pine scented and I have a tiny baby one and I want a bigger one. I want the massive big boy $500 roses one and while these candles are quality, I feel guilty buying one because you are literally burning money. Fancy candles are generally a great gift because you are literally burning money and it’s always better to burn someone else’s rather than your own.
    2. Erede Billow Collar. I love the collar lenght for necklaces, might be my favorite lenght. I like long lariat length but I love collars. I don’t really have many necklaces and I would like to change that. There is a list of more economical necklaces, because this one comes in at $16k. It is 18k and has a few diamonds although I wish it had more.
    3. Chloé cape. If you check my tiktok you’ll know I’m a bit obsessed with Chloé and have a growing collection (mostly purchased from TRR). I love the style and that they’re a b-corp. I fell in love with this cape when I saw it on the runway and really hope I get it soon (although not sure how that’s going to happen when I’m on a (s)low buy).
    4. Chloé fur coat. This is vintage and I have my eye on a few of them. This full length one, that I’m not entirely sure I could pull off and some shorter ones. When I buy things for my wardrobe, I go through a few mental questions, which I will go through in another post. One of the big recurring questions: is how close am I from becoming a sterotype? I’m toeing a lot of lines with my wardrobe, it is not exactly one thing and that’s how personal style should be.
    5. Magda Butrym crochet lace dress. Absolutely in love with this dress, granted I love Magda Butrym especially after getting my white whale from her line. I have a few other pieces I want from her. I love how structured, feminine, and edgy the pieces are and really grateful to own my favorite dress of all time.
    6. Chloé bag. I’m entirely unsure the style name for this bag, I only remember is was 11k on Bergdorf’s site and I accidently stumbled upon it. It’s so excessive and fun, I love the constrast between leather and metal. I love that it’s a banana, it’s so cute!
    7. Loewe whale bag! This is one of the more affordable pieces on this list. I need it, like truthfully, it’s a sperm whale, it’s realistic, it’s fun and silly, it’s only $1,600. Moby Dick is one of my favorite books which is why this bag is so special to me.

    honorable mention that should have been included but I forgot, alemais lantern mini dress. Playful and fun, and similar to the magda butrym dress, I am not entirely sure where I would wear this but I really want to wear it. It is 3100USD including the shipping.

    I might make a list of practical items that are much more economical and things I need to buy but haven’t gotten around to it.

  • i started a furniture company?

    i started a furniture company?

    a few of you are aware that I started a furniture company in 2021. it’s kind of funny, weird, and unexpected but I’ve always loved furniture and furniture design since a kid. I used to make these drawings and models of things I drew. It was a solid mix of furniture and spaces.

    When I moved into my first apartment post-undergrad I literally hated everything on the market. Everything was so boring or simply just not something I felt reflected me. It was also difficult to find furniture that was sustainable and didn’t look it. If you’ve known me for a long time you know I care deeply about the environment. You also know that even though I am extremely passionate about I subvert the aesthetics of sustainability. A friend has that I subvert a lot of aesthetics and they’re right, there are a lot of boxes across a variety of aesthetics and styles that I cross but some very key ones that I always end up vehemently opposing. Personally, I think this is where true style lies and it’s truly a fun (albeit weird) space to exist in. It’s a space of exploration and exists in multiple capacities. That’s what I wanted in furniture and I didn’t see it currently so I decided to design my own.

    There were a few other factors and influences that spurred me to start this company when I did in 2021. I was finishing up my stint at a VC firm and supporting numerous entrepreneurs; the lamp I helped design and develop the fabrications for was nearly done, and I couldn’t find a job in furniture design. All of these factors deciding to start studio apotroes (which went through a few name changes) at the time I did. Looking back for marketing reason I definitely wished I had the gall to start this company in 2020 at the start of the pandemic when people were deep into redecorating but c’est la vie. I knew from the start I wanted to the brand to focus on sustainability but in a very different way that’s currently approached in the market. We would be holistically sustainable, similar to the sustainability we practiced in the co-op I lived in during undergrad (hi scoopies!). This sustainability factored in finance and culture in addition to the environment. It is the definition that has impacted me the most but also the one I think is the best, the most sustainable, and the one I use daily (+ in all my writing).

    We all know what sustainability is…or at least think we know. Sustainability is often marketed as this expensive complete overhaul of one’s life to be full of natural colors, unpainted wood, glass, bamboo, and sleek metals; or has some high barrier to entry. The marketing perfect aesthetic is highly uniform and similar to the goals of the international style in architecture, intentionally devoid of place, culture, and heritage. While there is technically very little wrong with this aesthetic it is harmful and counterproductive to make it the defacto aesthetic associated with something as vital and common as sustainability. At it’s core sustainability is about reducing, reusing, rethinking, and recycling. You’ve probably already practiced it and didn’t realize it or think about it too deeply. From deciding you don’t actually need another garment or pan or lamp to reusing the glass jar your pasta sauce came in. These ubiquitous ways of practicing sustainability are vital because they are normal and second nature. They highlight the way that sustainability at its core is a practice and set of decisions, not a virtue-signaling aesthetic that can be conveyed through a uniform look. Sustainability truly has no uniform aesthetic and can fit into any style. Currently, we don’t see this, so people are turned off by the practice of sustainability because they feel like they have to lose part of their personal style to fit this marketed idea of sustainability. This is detrimental to actually achieving global sustainability which given our climate crisis is needed but also what many people want to support. (quick aside: That’s actually why I settled on the name apotroes, which is a play on the word apotropaic, the type of magic behind phrases like “knock on wood”. It means to turn away or ward off malintent, because we really need to turn away from the various unsustainable habits and practices in our society that have led us to this climate crisis. It also expresses hope that our efforts will impactful (especially with our experimental efforts). In order for sustainability to really become commonplace it needs to meet people aesthetically where they are currently. The aesthetics at studio apotroes are silly and refined (like our exaggerated pieces like the honeycomb coffee table), they’re culturally inspired (we have chairs inspired by African combs and picks), some are simply just fun (i.e. the bobbi shelf or the chairs we did for cafe mars), and others are just refined in the style of mid-century and Scandinavian design (our luna tabouret and some of our upcoming lamps).

    Okay I’ve spent a little too much time on the aesthetics (cultural/heritage) and environmental facets of sustainability. I just get riled up! Financial sustainability happens a few ways. It needs to be financially accessible, which I’ll acknowledge is really difficult to do when you have to pay yourself/employees livable wages and while providing a quality of product that isn’t as common as it once was. We do offer financing to be more accessible and inclusive because we understand that people are really underpaid. We use thick solid wood because everything is built to last multiple generations. We design and build everything to last because that is also part of financial sustainability. We hope that the pieces are able to maintain value based on design and craftsmanship alone but personally, I hope you keep the pieces in your home for generations to come.

    So that’s why I started studio apotroes and a little about it. I wanted furniture that was fun, refined, wacky, and culturally inspired. I wanted furniture made out of solid wood or some really funky materials like oysters that diverted waste in the process. Furniture designed to last and be passed down generations. There are some really cool projects coming up that I can’t wait to share so stayed tuned and follow studio apotroes on instagram if you don’t already (oh and sign up the newsletter I put a lot of work into it).

    okay so actually the company started as just an instagram account to force me to be comfortable sharing my work and the first thing i design was the honeycomb coffee table which is a few homes and was published almost immediately after i released it which was really nice considering i this whole thing really started with me trying to get comfortable sharing my work.

  • eating invasives (Green Crab Dumpling Recipe)

    eating invasives (Green Crab Dumpling Recipe)

    If you follow me on Instagram, you probably remember when I had a bunch of crabs in the kitchen. Well I’m finally going to explain what that was all about…

    green crabs in a box
    Some of my crabs being boxed up


    I’m not one to back down from a challenge especially when it’s in the kitchen and I love doing sustainable things, enter the green crabs. Green crabs are invasive in the US. This is bad because they have no natural predators, destroy the habitat, and eat everything they can. Eating invasives is very good for the environment because it protects endemic and native critters. You can’t over eat them. Green crabs are mostly on the East and West coasts, so if you live on one of these coasts it’s definitely a food you should try. I got my green crabs for free via the Shuck at Home Program from Green Crab Org (which if you’re in Boston I would recommend participating!). I signed up for ~5 pounds of crabs but I think I ended up with double that, which let me tell you is a lot of crabs. I thought about what I wanted to cook with what I thought was going to 5lb of crabs for like a week and finally settled on dumplings. I love dumplings, so much. I’ve only made dumplings one other time in my life and they were terrible, completely inedible. I learned to make dumplings from watching one of my fellow scoopies. I understood the process so much better after that even though I wouldn’t end up making dumplings for another 2 years. I am in no way an expert dumpling maker as when I made these it was my second time ever making them. This was a fun and interesting way for me to make a large batch of snack food and try my hand at dumpling making again (aka redeem myself in my eyes).

    my box of green crabs
    my box of green crabs in the sink being cleaned


    There were many challenges to recipe and honestly I don’t know if this is the best recipe for these crabs but it worked after trail and error. I literally had no clue what I was doing and research extensively while cooking because these were not working. This is probably the most time intensive recipe I will ever share. I highly recommend putting on a long series or a few movies because you will be in the kitchen for a while. The upside? You’ll have like over 100 dumplings and you’ll have the richest crab stock to use for so many dishes, in short you’ll eat for weeks maybe even months! I highly recommend clearing some freezer space because you will not use everything the day you make them. Oh and eat before you start because it’s a lot of work. Honestly I would have loved some soft shell green crabs because then I could have just fried them and been done but that’s not this. (side note: if you love blue crabs I would really recommend eating green crabs instead and asking for those where ever you buy blue crabs because blue crabs are endangered (i.e. don’t eat them!) and the preferred food source of whooping cranes, eat green crabs instead to help the environment).


    This is a time intensive recipe, I’m trying to figure out some other less intense recipes but I promise you this is well worth it. This is one of those things that’s fun to do with friends or family or even alone. You could also use this technique to make a stuffed pasta like ravioli

    Green Crab Dumpling Recipe
    Things you’ll need to cook the crabs:

    • The largest pot you have (I didn’t have a big pot when I made these so I used 3 different pots that were approx. 8 quarts each. I personally I would use a 20 quart pot or larger)
    • Seasoning (you can use old bay or a mixture of bay leaves, oregano, dried chilis, and peppercorns//use whatever seasoning you want the dumplings don’t really need the broth, you can use the stock to make soup, polenta, gumbo, or pasta anything really)
    • Vinegar (I put like a quarter cup in each pot of water (so a quarter cup per 8 quarts), this helps soften the shell which trust me you want to do)
    • a sieve
    • a large bowl
    • a funnel
    • a rubber spatula
    • A medium sized bowl
    • a few quart containers
    • TONGS- these need to be sturdy
    • A mallet or jar
    • A drain plug strainer
    • Freezer space, large enough and flat enough to keep store your baking sheet or cutting board

    Things you’ll need to make the dumplings:

    • fresh ginger ( I used about a quarter inch grated but you can use more or less depending on taste)
    • low sodium soy sauce (about a quarter cup)
    • Chinese 5 spice (optional)
    • cabbage 1 small head
    • carrots 3
    • onions 1 (medium sized)
    • garlic 1-3 cloves
    • optional: chili paste or chili flakes
    • dumpling wrappers
    • a large bowl
    • Cutting board + knife
    • toasted sesame oil
    • Large pan
    • a small spoon
    • large freezer bag

    Obviously you’ll need the green crabs

    This recipe has multiple parts, I recommend reading this through before attempting to cook anything, first we’ll start with cooking the crabs because they need to cool a little before you can handle them.

    This was my set up. I would not recommend doing 3 smaller pots.
    1. Fill your pot(s) with water (if you’re in an older building I recommend using cold water to minimize exposure to lead) about 60-75% of the size of the pot, add your seasoning to the pot, and bring it to a vigorous boil.

    While you’re waiting for your water to boil, we’re going to clean the crabs and prep the stuff for the dumplings.

    1. The crabs are living creatures and they do not want to be killed but this a mercy killing. They may try to pinch you with their claws which is why you have tongs.
      1. First plug your sink with a strainer, this is every important! You don’t want the crabs to escape because they’re bad for the environment. One of mine did and I had to turn on the garbage disposal to ensure it didn’t escape alive😞
      2. Dump the crabs in the sink and run cool water over the crabs to clean them for approximately 5 minutes. You want all debris removed from the crabs.
      3. Rinse the container the crabs came in and set aside
      4. Using the tongs add the crabs back into the container they came in, and keep the lid on them
    2. Slice your onion and carrots into thin slivers. Cut off the tops and ends of each veggie, then cut them in half and slice into the slivers. Mince your garlic. Set aside.
    3. In a large skillet, add about 1 tablespoon of sesame oil (and 2 of avocado oil) and heat on medium to low heat. While the pan is heating return to the crabs.

    Cooking the crabs

    cooked crabs
    the crabs will be red when cooked
    1. Once the water is boiling vigorously dump the crabs in the pot(s). If you are using multiple pots add enough crabs to raise the water lever but not so much that the water overflows.
    2. The crabs are cooked once they change colors and stop moving (the color change is the biggest difference and the easiest indicator). This will take about 10 minutes depending on the size of the pot and the amount of crabs.
    3. Once the crabs are cooked, turn off the heat and let cool in the pot, while you return to the dumpling filling.

    Cooking the dumpling filling

    1. While the crabs are cooking return to the pan. Once it is warm add onions, carrots, chili flakes, ginger, Chinese 5 spice, and garlic and sauté. If using chili paste, mix chili paste with soy sauce and set aside.
    2. Once onions are nearly translucent, add cabbage to pan and mix well. Add your soy sauce (mixture) and cook down the cabbage until it is no longer raw and fully cooked, about 10-15 minutes. Stir occasionally. Once cooked, turn off heat and remove pan. Allow to cool while you work on the crabs.

    Collecting the meat

    Crab meat in a bowl with a spoon.
    So technically you will have a mixture of crab meat and roe. This is fine
    1. Save the broth you will need it to obtain the crab meat. Using the tongs, remove the crabs from the pot into a clean container(s) or baking sheet(s). Let cool enough so that you can handle them without the tongs.
    2. (This a Vietnamese method and it worked pretty well.) In the sink, place your large, and place the sieve over the bowl and add 5-7 crabs to strainer and mash! You want to crush the crabs very well into coarse chunks.
    3. Grab one of your quart containers and scoop the broth/boiled water out and pour it over the crushed crabs. Repeat this a few times, I did it about 5 times per batch (essentially until the liquid no longer flowed through the strainer) and reused the liquid. Remove crab shells from strainer and use the spatula or spoon to scoop out the meat which is all that should be left behind and place it into a separate clean bowl. You will repeat this process until you have done this with all of the crabs.
    4. Once you have finished the crabs add the meat to the cabbage mixture and mix thoroughly. Now we make dumplings! First, however, clean up and maybe take a little breather.
    5. At this point, you can discard all your crab shells either in your compost bin or in the trash. Decant your broth into containers to cool fully, leave space because this is water-based so it will expand once frozen, and freeze once cool (you want the liquid to cool in about 30-60 minutes before freezing). Put your dishes in the dishwasher or hand wash and set aside. You will need a small bowl or cup of water, cutting board, and baking sheet lined with parchment (the parchment is optional). Everything else can be put away.

    Making the dumplings

    dumpling on a baking sheet
    I actually use these silicone mats instead of parchment. I got them from target and I love them.
    1. On a clean cutting board or flat surface place your dumpling wrapper. Scoop about a half tablespoon of the crab and cabbage mixture onto the center of the dumpling wrapper. Wet your finger and run it around the circumference/perimeter of the wrapper and fold, press the edges down to ensure it is sealed. Pick up the dumpling and pinch the edges (please watch a video on how to do this). I will be honest my first few were not good but you will end up making around 100 dumplings so you will develop the skill throughout this process. I am much better at this now. Place the dumpling on the baking sheet lined with parchment Repeat this process until you fill the baking sheet with rows of dumplings leaving about a half-inch of space between them.
    2. Place the baking sheet in the freezer for about 15-20 minutes. You are flash freezing the dumplings so you can eat them later. You want the outside of the dumpling to cold and slightly frozen. Once they have reached this state you can store them in a container or large freezer bag in your freezer.
    3. Repeat this process until all of the dumplings are frozen. If you want to cook some, I recommend cooking the amount you want right after you fold them.

    Cooking the dumplings

    1. In a pan, heat about a tablespoon or 2 of sesame oil over medium heat.
    2. Once hot add the dumplings, either fresh or frozen, flat side down and cook until the bottom is browned a little (about 2 minutes if fresh, about 4-5 if frozen).
    3. Add a scant quarter cup of water to the pan and cover. The dumplings will now steam and will be ready once all of the water has evaporated.
    4. Serve immediately with soy sauce or a dumpling sauce (I would like to recommend the Zhong sauce by fly by jing but mine was stolen so I never got to try it)

    That’s it! Normally I don’t make recipes this involved but I wanted something fun to try and it was literally the middle of the pandemic so I had a bunch of free time.